Ah, what a weekend! I did nothing but homework. I am trying to get ahead because next weekend I will be out of town and trying to do sculpture on an airplane is against FAA and TSA regulations.
I am in SCAD's world famous Montgomery Hall right now. The only building on campus that doesn't close at 5:30 during the summer. It is essentially the digital media/art building. Lots of animators and visual effects people, as well as film and game design. In a nutshell, it is a building full of single guys who stare at monitors for weeks at a time, never showering, barely eating, dreaming of Brittney Spears and not realizing there is a world outside of Cyberspace. I fit right in...
Anyway, I "finished" my clay head. However, it looks NOTHING like me and to be honest it barely looks human. Such is life, I only had a weekend to learn terra cotta, and create a self portrait with it. NO EASY FEAT! The last time I even worked with clay I think I was like 13. But anyway it is done and Tuesday I will start the plaster casting process that is the major part of the assignment. I was actually instructed to do at least three self portraits in my sketchbook. I have never actually looked in a mirror and drawn myself before. It is incredibly hard and when you have to stop and analyze the details of yourself two things happen: 1) You realize just how ugly you really are 2) How much you suck at drawing. So all in all this assignment has been a real kick in the balls as far as my frustration level is concerned.
If that wasn't enough, tommorrow I have to give a speech on the Tour De France and Lance Armstrong. As if I haven't milked that guy enough (i.e. my pointilism project) now I am doing an oral report on the man. Sooner or later I am going to have to start paying him royalties. Whatever, at least it is done, I just have to make up some note cards and I am good to go. Then when I finally get home, I have to make a movie for another one of my classes. This weekend is very ironic because I thought it would be one of those weekends where I would get to catch up on all my extra work and be in the green for my trip. As my luck would have it, I am just barely out of the red and I have a ton of shit to do before tommorrow rears its ugly head. Yes, I know I complain but the truth is I like my classes, especially my 3-D Design (read that as sculpture) class. I get to build stuff which I like to do and until I had to make something that was actually human and out of clay I was kicking ass. This too shall pass...
This weekend wasn't a total loss though. I got more of my cds onto my computer and thusly onto my iPod. Furthermmore I been hearing from my boy Caz in Berlin and the Gooch in working for the Sox in Beantown. Miss those guys, so it was great to hear from them. Only problem is I have little time to chat on the phone so I always have to cut the pleasantries short. I did manage to go out one night this week. I didn't drink because I had so much to do but my friends did and man where they smashed! Now when I get smashed I have a tendency to say off-color things...who am I kidding I do that sober. Regardless I never do anything stupid...for example. We went to Sorry Charlie's and there were all these custom choppers out front. My buddy Kelsey was highly shit faced and decides he is going to sit on one of these 150,000 dollar bikes. Well as Adam and I start yelling at him, the bikers that own the bikes come out of no where and all hell breaks lose. Adam gets Kelsey off the bike and they both begin to grovel in front of this rather large bald tattooed (probably a canabal) biker. Who responds with "Get him the fuck outta here" YES SIR QUICKER THAN YOU CAN BLINK! Yes, I may say stupid thing and embaress myself but I dont' get my friends in potential fights, unless it is over a girl but was only one time and I wasn't drunk...oh and it was MY girl.
So you can see it was kind of crazy this weekend. Stress levels were high and Savannah was full of hell. But all in all, it wasn't too bad. I think it was the longest amount of time I have actually spent in my house since the quarter began. I am usually at School from Early mornnig till late at night...
In other news..DAMN YOU ANONYMOUS POSTERS with your hints of how to get a date or members of the opposite sex willing to take on this hideous monstrosity. Have some balls and leave your name!
Ok well back to working on my speech...I am starting to feel the Sandman
M
PS. I can't wait for Mel Gibson's new movie "Revenge of the Christ."
Sunday, July 31, 2005
Thursday, July 28, 2005
Warming up...
Another great thing about blogs is that when you have to write several papers in one weekend it is a great way to warm up your hands and brain for a several hour long typing session. Blogs are also a great way to procrastinate so my warm up will probably be quite long!
Anyway, my previous post about "the girl" I stumbled upon really seemed to spark a lot of interest. I think I got more random anonymous responses from that one post than I have from anything else I have written. Only one regular reader that I know of commented on the entry.
Well continuing the saga of the "girl behind the bar", I have some more news. The young lady that I found so stunning has actually been fired from her place on employment! I found this out the other day by my usual method of keeping my ears open and my mouth shut. This girl apparently got arrested one night and did not show up to work the next day. This really pissed off her co-workers as some of them had to come in earlier and then to top it all off she was a few hours late for her shift the next day. The boss told her not to bother coming in and fired her over the phone. I find this to be really amusing. First off, I said the girl was beautiful, and she is without a doubt pretty damn stunning. However, I never said she was smart or had a personality. After hereing she got thrown in the klink my opinion of her isn't really stellar. All beauty no brains my friends leads to nothing but misery.
I do however appreciate people's supportive comments. Telling me to make a move and go out on a limb and all of that. For the record I have done that 100 times over in other situations with different girls that grabbed my attention. Almost always they have boyfriends or want NOTHING to do with me. Now some might say I try too hard or that I am girl crazy and go after everything in a skirt. I don't think either one of these statements is true. What is true is that I am incredibly picky so when I stumble (I mean that literally) upon a girl that I like then I usually go for it. Sometimes it isn't worth the effort. The girl is a dud, has the personality of a dead sea slug, etc etc. Sometimes it is worth it but they are already involved or more commonly don't like yours truly. To say that I act the fool is as accurate the sun will rise in the morning. Such is life.
What I refuse to believe though is that non-action will bring results. The old adage that if you don't look for it will come to you. Well folks I am not exactly acting like Indiana Jones on some quest for the "Holy of Holies". But when I see an opportunity I think it is just stupid to not try and make something happen. But like many things in life there are many truths to my tales and one of them is while I would love to have a girlfriend again I am not really sure I have the time or money for one. School keeps me extrodinarily busy with work as well as preoccupied with brainstorming for new ideas.
What really annoys me though is the assumption on the part of the female species. It isn't like when I try and talk to you I am convertly asking you to get naked and hop in bed with me. The assumption that a guy isn't genuinely interested in getting to know you is a big mistake on their part. I understand girls need to be on their guard, but I am not exactly a physically or mentally (sadly) intimidating guy. Quite the opposite I would think, but regardless don't assume that just because I ask for your number or if I can take you out that I want anything more than a date! A chance to talk and get to know who you are and whether or not I WANT anything to do with YOU is basically all I am looking for. And if you are so lucky to make the first round cut and become a draft pick then consider yourself damn lucky and don't act like you had it coming! Anyway...as for the bartender girl, well she has a co-worker that I have had a little crush on for a while. Not that I have been any more successful there but she is a hell of a lot smarter. So it was all just a passing moment between me, my cheesesteak and the fugitive bar keep. I have other things I need to focus on, like making a clay head.
Keeps your eyes open for some sculpture to appear soon on the blog. I have a giant frog and a dragonfly to show. I am also currently working on a mini-bust of me which will have three variations. This latest project I am NOT looking forward to, only because my experience with clay has not been that great. However, I will accept this mission with an open mind and embrace the challenge wholeheartedly. Art is hell...
Anyway, my previous post about "the girl" I stumbled upon really seemed to spark a lot of interest. I think I got more random anonymous responses from that one post than I have from anything else I have written. Only one regular reader that I know of commented on the entry.
Well continuing the saga of the "girl behind the bar", I have some more news. The young lady that I found so stunning has actually been fired from her place on employment! I found this out the other day by my usual method of keeping my ears open and my mouth shut. This girl apparently got arrested one night and did not show up to work the next day. This really pissed off her co-workers as some of them had to come in earlier and then to top it all off she was a few hours late for her shift the next day. The boss told her not to bother coming in and fired her over the phone. I find this to be really amusing. First off, I said the girl was beautiful, and she is without a doubt pretty damn stunning. However, I never said she was smart or had a personality. After hereing she got thrown in the klink my opinion of her isn't really stellar. All beauty no brains my friends leads to nothing but misery.
I do however appreciate people's supportive comments. Telling me to make a move and go out on a limb and all of that. For the record I have done that 100 times over in other situations with different girls that grabbed my attention. Almost always they have boyfriends or want NOTHING to do with me. Now some might say I try too hard or that I am girl crazy and go after everything in a skirt. I don't think either one of these statements is true. What is true is that I am incredibly picky so when I stumble (I mean that literally) upon a girl that I like then I usually go for it. Sometimes it isn't worth the effort. The girl is a dud, has the personality of a dead sea slug, etc etc. Sometimes it is worth it but they are already involved or more commonly don't like yours truly. To say that I act the fool is as accurate the sun will rise in the morning. Such is life.
What I refuse to believe though is that non-action will bring results. The old adage that if you don't look for it will come to you. Well folks I am not exactly acting like Indiana Jones on some quest for the "Holy of Holies". But when I see an opportunity I think it is just stupid to not try and make something happen. But like many things in life there are many truths to my tales and one of them is while I would love to have a girlfriend again I am not really sure I have the time or money for one. School keeps me extrodinarily busy with work as well as preoccupied with brainstorming for new ideas.
What really annoys me though is the assumption on the part of the female species. It isn't like when I try and talk to you I am convertly asking you to get naked and hop in bed with me. The assumption that a guy isn't genuinely interested in getting to know you is a big mistake on their part. I understand girls need to be on their guard, but I am not exactly a physically or mentally (sadly) intimidating guy. Quite the opposite I would think, but regardless don't assume that just because I ask for your number or if I can take you out that I want anything more than a date! A chance to talk and get to know who you are and whether or not I WANT anything to do with YOU is basically all I am looking for. And if you are so lucky to make the first round cut and become a draft pick then consider yourself damn lucky and don't act like you had it coming! Anyway...as for the bartender girl, well she has a co-worker that I have had a little crush on for a while. Not that I have been any more successful there but she is a hell of a lot smarter. So it was all just a passing moment between me, my cheesesteak and the fugitive bar keep. I have other things I need to focus on, like making a clay head.
Keeps your eyes open for some sculpture to appear soon on the blog. I have a giant frog and a dragonfly to show. I am also currently working on a mini-bust of me which will have three variations. This latest project I am NOT looking forward to, only because my experience with clay has not been that great. However, I will accept this mission with an open mind and embrace the challenge wholeheartedly. Art is hell...
Sunday, July 17, 2005
motivation
Man, there are just some days no matter how many deadlines I have bearing down on me I just don't have the motivation to do a damn thing associated with school.
I don't have anything due tommorrow but there are things I need to work on and I just don't have the fire in the gut to do so. There are some older projects that I want to retune and resubmit but I just can't seem to be bothered to finish them.
I often wonder how people who make their living doing art can get out of bed and stay motivated. I am sure it is just a weekend thing for me and tommorrow on my way to class I will have pumped myself up. But right now I just do not care for any sort of homework. It is really frustrating actually to be so unmotivated, and it actually scares me. The key to the art game or doing any sort of creative work for a living is discipline. The people that make are the ones that get up everyday and do there thing. People who get books published or get their art noticed are the ones that work hard at it. For me to succeed I need to go the distance and not just get up and go to work but work harder every day than I did the day before. The SEALS have a saying "The only easy day was yesterday,"
Enough of my bitching I will just suck it up and hope this lack of balls goes away.
The work that is posted is a self portrait I had to do for a class in 2-D Design. Basically you use different colors to describe the value and "map" of the face and then you add a "motif" to add more detail. It was fun...sort of
I don't have anything due tommorrow but there are things I need to work on and I just don't have the fire in the gut to do so. There are some older projects that I want to retune and resubmit but I just can't seem to be bothered to finish them.
I often wonder how people who make their living doing art can get out of bed and stay motivated. I am sure it is just a weekend thing for me and tommorrow on my way to class I will have pumped myself up. But right now I just do not care for any sort of homework. It is really frustrating actually to be so unmotivated, and it actually scares me. The key to the art game or doing any sort of creative work for a living is discipline. The people that make are the ones that get up everyday and do there thing. People who get books published or get their art noticed are the ones that work hard at it. For me to succeed I need to go the distance and not just get up and go to work but work harder every day than I did the day before. The SEALS have a saying "The only easy day was yesterday,"
Enough of my bitching I will just suck it up and hope this lack of balls goes away.
The work that is posted is a self portrait I had to do for a class in 2-D Design. Basically you use different colors to describe the value and "map" of the face and then you add a "motif" to add more detail. It was fun...sort of
Monday, July 11, 2005
Something...
Seems like it has been ages since I posted. Life has been insanely busy, the summer quarter has started to pick up and I am excelling in two of my class and ripping my hair out in the other. Learning Adobe Photoshop and Illustrator is a real up hill battle. These programs are amazing design programs but it is like learning to write again for the first time. Only time will tell I suppose.
Now onto a different subject that is at least more interesting. There are some girls I find attractive and other that I don't. This is normal for all of us. Furthermore there are some girls that I find attractive that another guy might not and vice versa. Again this is normal. I truly believe that there are some members of the opposite sex for whatever unknown reason I will be incredibly attracted to while the same girl will be unattractive to one of my friends or another guy. I don't think this is exceptional by any means, I think it is very normal. We all have our likes and dislikes and those extend into the realm of physical and emotional attraction. But what is unique is this: I feel that there may be only two or three people in the entire world that you find so attractive that they can stop you in your tracks. The type of person who upon seeing makes your heart race and your breathing hard. Your stomach gets butterflies and the only thing you can do is stare open mouth like someone just hit you over the head with a club. This type of thing might only happen once or twice in your life. But it is an unmistakable experience. Certainly, in my case anyway, there are girls out there that I find incredibly attractive, there are the celebrities/models/pornstars that are outrageous hot and are the stuff of fantasy. There are the girls next door, and ones in your class. The super cute bubbly waitress/bartender. All of them you would date or like to get to know but there are only a few, one or two in a life time that just take your breath away.
I just recently experienced this. I think it may be only the second time in my life experiencing this and the first time I am not even sure was a real case. But this time was for sure. This girl was so amazingly beautiful I couldn't do anything but stare at her open-mouthed and communicate in nods in smiles. My heartbeat sped up and I felt ridiculously silly. If I had a mirror I can guarantee my face was bright red. The experience was not lost on me, I was definitely thrown for a loop. I am not really sure what to do about it.
You see, the problem with being "stricken" as I like to call it is that 9 out 10 times it just happens in passing. You are out and about and it hits you like a flash of lightening. You are so upended that taking action is out of the question and then before you realize it the moment is over and you never see that person again. So I am not sure if I will ever see this girl again, I would definitely like to. I don't know anything about her. To be honest the whole "stricken" experience could just disintergrate about talking to the person and finding out they are a complete moron. So for now I think will just stand in the background and admire. Keep and eye on my pulse and wonder if I will ever be "stricken" again or if this was the one true time in my life...
Now onto a different subject that is at least more interesting. There are some girls I find attractive and other that I don't. This is normal for all of us. Furthermore there are some girls that I find attractive that another guy might not and vice versa. Again this is normal. I truly believe that there are some members of the opposite sex for whatever unknown reason I will be incredibly attracted to while the same girl will be unattractive to one of my friends or another guy. I don't think this is exceptional by any means, I think it is very normal. We all have our likes and dislikes and those extend into the realm of physical and emotional attraction. But what is unique is this: I feel that there may be only two or three people in the entire world that you find so attractive that they can stop you in your tracks. The type of person who upon seeing makes your heart race and your breathing hard. Your stomach gets butterflies and the only thing you can do is stare open mouth like someone just hit you over the head with a club. This type of thing might only happen once or twice in your life. But it is an unmistakable experience. Certainly, in my case anyway, there are girls out there that I find incredibly attractive, there are the celebrities/models/pornstars that are outrageous hot and are the stuff of fantasy. There are the girls next door, and ones in your class. The super cute bubbly waitress/bartender. All of them you would date or like to get to know but there are only a few, one or two in a life time that just take your breath away.
I just recently experienced this. I think it may be only the second time in my life experiencing this and the first time I am not even sure was a real case. But this time was for sure. This girl was so amazingly beautiful I couldn't do anything but stare at her open-mouthed and communicate in nods in smiles. My heartbeat sped up and I felt ridiculously silly. If I had a mirror I can guarantee my face was bright red. The experience was not lost on me, I was definitely thrown for a loop. I am not really sure what to do about it.
You see, the problem with being "stricken" as I like to call it is that 9 out 10 times it just happens in passing. You are out and about and it hits you like a flash of lightening. You are so upended that taking action is out of the question and then before you realize it the moment is over and you never see that person again. So I am not sure if I will ever see this girl again, I would definitely like to. I don't know anything about her. To be honest the whole "stricken" experience could just disintergrate about talking to the person and finding out they are a complete moron. So for now I think will just stand in the background and admire. Keep and eye on my pulse and wonder if I will ever be "stricken" again or if this was the one true time in my life...
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