Seems like it has been ages since I posted. Life has been insanely busy, the summer quarter has started to pick up and I am excelling in two of my class and ripping my hair out in the other. Learning Adobe Photoshop and Illustrator is a real up hill battle. These programs are amazing design programs but it is like learning to write again for the first time. Only time will tell I suppose.
Now onto a different subject that is at least more interesting. There are some girls I find attractive and other that I don't. This is normal for all of us. Furthermore there are some girls that I find attractive that another guy might not and vice versa. Again this is normal. I truly believe that there are some members of the opposite sex for whatever unknown reason I will be incredibly attracted to while the same girl will be unattractive to one of my friends or another guy. I don't think this is exceptional by any means, I think it is very normal. We all have our likes and dislikes and those extend into the realm of physical and emotional attraction. But what is unique is this: I feel that there may be only two or three people in the entire world that you find so attractive that they can stop you in your tracks. The type of person who upon seeing makes your heart race and your breathing hard. Your stomach gets butterflies and the only thing you can do is stare open mouth like someone just hit you over the head with a club. This type of thing might only happen once or twice in your life. But it is an unmistakable experience. Certainly, in my case anyway, there are girls out there that I find incredibly attractive, there are the celebrities/models/pornstars that are outrageous hot and are the stuff of fantasy. There are the girls next door, and ones in your class. The super cute bubbly waitress/bartender. All of them you would date or like to get to know but there are only a few, one or two in a life time that just take your breath away.
I just recently experienced this. I think it may be only the second time in my life experiencing this and the first time I am not even sure was a real case. But this time was for sure. This girl was so amazingly beautiful I couldn't do anything but stare at her open-mouthed and communicate in nods in smiles. My heartbeat sped up and I felt ridiculously silly. If I had a mirror I can guarantee my face was bright red. The experience was not lost on me, I was definitely thrown for a loop. I am not really sure what to do about it.
You see, the problem with being "stricken" as I like to call it is that 9 out 10 times it just happens in passing. You are out and about and it hits you like a flash of lightening. You are so upended that taking action is out of the question and then before you realize it the moment is over and you never see that person again. So I am not sure if I will ever see this girl again, I would definitely like to. I don't know anything about her. To be honest the whole "stricken" experience could just disintergrate about talking to the person and finding out they are a complete moron. So for now I think will just stand in the background and admire. Keep and eye on my pulse and wonder if I will ever be "stricken" again or if this was the one true time in my life...
2 comments:
who is this amazing girl? maybe i need to meet her too...
Can I give you some advice based on my experience? Don't just stand in the background and admire...if you want her you should go for it before someone else comes along and sweeps her away. You never know, she could be doing the same thing you are...standing in the background and admiring, just waiting for you to make the move. You have a chance and if you don't take it you will end up regretting it later on....
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